"And I'm sorry that you waited. It was awful, what I saw," he said, repeating it even if she knew it. "I haven't stopped seeing it or dreaming about it or sometimes thinking I'm back there when I'm alone and it's dark."

He took a few harsh breaths at some of those memories and shook his head. "Death happens everywhere though. It's not exclusive to the island or Kansas or England. It's just -- it's how it is."