Bod shook his head and swiped a hand across his wet eyes, fighting off the tears and the urge to scream until he was hoarse. "I'm trying not to, Kate, but you're making it hard. You've made me feel like a monster. I think you're...names that I don't want to repeat right now, I've ruined your weekend, I don't know what I'm talking about, I'm a coward, I'm nothing."

He stopped his words and looked down again. "When you look at me, I feel like a monster. And it's awful and sad. I tried so hard to get away from that and now...it's constant."