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[vanillajello]

I am Kate
I am seventeen
I am from Kansas
sometimes afraid of the dark
and also
I have scars
I have a bottomless stomach
nothing but sweet teeth
a bitchy streak a mile wide
no grace nor tact
and I was amazing once

but I'm not a princess
if I had wings I'd smack into buildings
if I had twenty sisters I would go crazy
if I had a kingdom I'd mess it up

I am not a princess
I am the fucking dragon
vampire magnet
selfish little sociopath
friend to the Irish
I am stubborn
I am stupid
but I don't need to be saved
I don't want to be protected
I just want to be worth it
I just want to be the trouble that you don't mind
because in the end it makes you feel better inside
makes you feel safe at night
amused during the day
I just want to be
not faking it

and with you I am
totally there
an actual person
actually real
because there simply is
no hiding from you
because you look and you watch and you see
and suddenly I'm there
in my completely messed up glory
and I'm loved
and loving you back
more than you will ever know