vanillajello | Room 324, Sunday Evening

Kate pushed herself up as well, totally thinking this was an accomplishment. Really, that they'd gotten this far without any tears was kind of a success too.

"Do you want to eat something?" Before she'd start poking at his feet and most likely causing yet more unavoidable pain. "I don't have anything... too healthy, but I have at least pudding and a couple of power bars, and cookies. And possibly an apple."

"I'm not really hungry," he hedged, not sure if his stomach could handle food, "but I know I should eat."

First, he was going to sit back down on the bed, rubbing the spot above his knee idly. "So, maybe just a cookie? I don't want anything too heavy but I should eat."

"You should eat," Kate agreed as she went to pick up her bag. She hadn't really felt much like eating all through the weekend, but she had because it was necessary. Even if it was just a little bit at a time.

Once she found the bag of cookies, she picked up one for herself, then held the bag out for him. "Just a cookie."

"I haven't really eaten since Thursday," he said, taking the cookie and taking a small bite. After the first day or so, he'd forgotten about hunger because of everything else. "Thank you."

He continued nibbling quietly, glancing at the bandges on his leg and then at her, checking to make sure both were all right. He wasn't thinking about himself.

Kate sat down for the moment, next to him on the edge of the bed, cookie in one hand and bag in the other.

She didn't say anything, but she knew she'd probably have to start talking soon enough, to prevent her weariness from taking over.

But right now, she just ate her cookie.

For once, Bod wasn't volunteering up any conversation on his own either. He couldn't think of anything to say, couldn't find an inane conversation topic in his muddled, stressed mind.

He kept his eyes on his leg now, finishing the cookie in a few bites and keeping his head bowed and his eyes downcast.

Kate was struck by the urge to lean against him, maybe wrap an arm around his shoulders, resting her head on his shoulder, feeling and hearing his breathing, once again making sure he was really there.

But she didn't do any of that. She had to hold it together. Just hold it together, just a little while longer.

"Right," she said, pushing herself up again. "Feet. It's gonna hurt, but I'm pretty sure there's shit there that's not supposed to be there, so..."

"Are you sure you want to do that?" Bod asked, looking up at her once again. "I mean, I know it's bad and I wouldn't want to make you if you're not all right with it."

That hadn't come out exactly as he'd planned and he winced. "I mean, if it's too...awful to look at. I don't want to make you sick."

"It's not going to make me sick," she replied steadily, even if she wasn't quite sure about that. She was sure about something else, and that was enough for her. "I'm not letting your feet stay like that any longer, and I'm pretty sure you can't do anything about them yourself."

"All right, all right," he said, holding up a hand to ward of any more arguing. "I had to ask, Kate. I'm sorry but I had to. I just wanted to make sure. It's going to hurt."

He knew that. He nodded. "I'll manage."

She sighed again, letting go off that spike of annoyance that had slipped out, and rolled her shoulders some before reaching for the first aid kit and seeing what supplies were there.

"Okay. So how do we do this? What's most comfortable?"

It felt wrong to say there was going to be anything comfortable about it, but there were probably ways where there wouldn't be any extra strain from awkward positions, at least.

"I don't know, I've never done this before either," he said, shaking his head. "I can lay down and either leave my feet off the edge of the bed or put one in your lap. Those are the first two options that come to mind."

"Yeah well, let's hope we never have to do this again." Fat chance, it was Fandom she was talking about. "That lap option sounds good to me."

"All right," Bod agreed, sliding back further on her bed so he could lay down and stare at the ceiling. It was going to hurt so he'd already started preparing his mind, pulling up other things to think about, anything.

"I didn't plan this," he added for some reason. "I wasn't trying to be a hero."

Kate went and grabbed her towel off the chair, then came back to the bed and sat down, spreading the towel over her lap. Seemed necessary.

"I know," she said, subdued. "Even heroes wear shoes."

Bod resisted the urge to apologize and, instead, draped an arm over his eyes. He took a few long, slow breaths, getting himself calmed as much as he could before she started poking at his feet.

He thought about mumbling something in reply to her statement but didn't.

Kate drew in a deep breath as she picked up the tweezers from the kit, figuring the first order of business was removing anything that wasn't supposed to be there. Gingerly, she took a hold of one of his feet, peering at the bottom of it.

It was kind of disgusting. But this was necessary. She'd just hold on to how necessary this was.

"Okay," she said, mostly to signal that he should probably brace himself, because here she went, trying to pluck out any tiny rocks she could see, as quickly and efficiently as she could.

There she went, indeed. He immediately tensed and bit down on his lower lip harshly. In the haze of pain, everything from that other place pushed forward, becoming fresh in his mind again.

He made a small noise but stayed still, using the tension to keep himself from moving even if he wanted to desperately yank his leg away.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," she muttered, almost under her breath, but she didn't stop until she was done. It felt longer than it really took, even to her, but she was pretty quick.

"Now, I'm gonna, like, disinfect this and wrap it up before I do the other one, okay?"

Bod nodded a few times, not trusting his voice right now. He just nodded and kept his arm over his eyes, concentrating hard on not moving. He could manage this pain, he could and he knew that even if doubts were creeping in.

"All right," escaped from his lips, sounding thin.

Kate closed her eyes for just a moment centering herself and trying to remember what she'd learned in First Aid, just to focus on something.

Then she opened her eyes and kept going, using the antiseptic to clean the cuts, murmuring soothing things as she did, trying to take the edge off the stinging. Once that was done, she wrapped the foot up in bandages. Professor Pierce should've been proud.

And then it was on to the other foot and back to the tweezers. Unfortunately there was a tiny bit of rock there that was a little harder to get out. She was going to get it, but it took just a little more time.

"I'm so sorry."

"It's fine," he said though he sounded like it was anything but. His voice wavered and faltered though he was proud he'd kept still long enough for her to do this despite the unrelenting and awful pain.

Next time, shoes.

"You're doing fine," he breathed even if he was coiled as tight as a piano string. "You're doing fine."

She refrained from arguing with that, because she needed the reassurance, shaky as it was. Never done this before. It was amazing she was as calm as she was.

That pesky little rock came out eventually, and the few others followed far more easily. "Almost done," she muttered as she started with the antiseptic again. "Not much more."

"I'm all right, I'm all right." He wasn't but he wasn't going to say that anyway. He took a few quick breaths, valiantly fighting off the urge to just curl up and not let her finish.

Selfishly, he was glad he didn't have to look since that probably would have been too much for him. Feeling it was enough.

Looking at it... actually got pretty easy after she got started. She just focused on the details of what she was doing. Had she stopped and thought about what she was doing, or actually looked at the whole mess she was dealing with, she would've been doomed.

But she was surprisingly okay. The second time around the disinfecting and the bandages that followed almost felt like routine, and she was finished quicker than the first time.

"All done," she said, getting up to take the towel and the first aid supplies away.

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